Absolute silence. My hearing was minimized and I could hardly hear. All I could feel was my heart thumping repeatedly in a chaotic beat against my chest.
Even writing this now, I can barely hear. Something is wrong with my left ear AGAIN.
Only at times like this do I realise how people feel when they lose their hearing. To put it in a general way, how people feel when they lose an ability they got so used to everyday.
While waiting for my airplane to arrive in KK's terminal, I seated myself behind two elderly couple on wheelchairs. Without realising much, I opened Dan Brown's Angels and Demons and was oblivious with my surrounding until an anouncement blared over the whole departure lounge.
A guy stood up and started pushing one of the disabled couple. It suddenly struck me that how life is when you cannot walk. Having a part of your body but having no control over it is devastating.
When I was in the plane, I guess the pressure was too high that my ears were both blocked. Oh well that's pretty normal. However, after several swallows of water and slightly before the plane landed, my eardrums hurt, felt like they were being pierced. Now that, was pretty abnormal.
And so back to the beginning of my story, I was surrounded by absolute silence and I prayed, hard.
I prayed that I will not lose my hearing. That I can be able to hear the lovely sounds of nature and of God's creation again.
And it dawns on me, how I treasure things only when I am about to lose them.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
A walk at the beach
I just love the beach.
Looking at the water rolling up the sands just soothes my mind. In addition to that, it just reminds me how beautiful God's creation is.
Miri beach
And I love to watch the sunset. The streaks of orangy sunlight overpowering the sky, stretching out its lovely waves to everyone there.
The beach is a place of relief, just by listening to the sounds of waves crashing against the shore.
Despite what people said about the beach, about what occurs every 3 years, I find myself rejoicing at the thought of a trip to the beach.
So what do you say? Would you join me for a walk along the beach?
Looking at the water rolling up the sands just soothes my mind. In addition to that, it just reminds me how beautiful God's creation is.
Miri beach
And I love to watch the sunset. The streaks of orangy sunlight overpowering the sky, stretching out its lovely waves to everyone there.
The beach is a place of relief, just by listening to the sounds of waves crashing against the shore.
Despite what people said about the beach, about what occurs every 3 years, I find myself rejoicing at the thought of a trip to the beach.
So what do you say? Would you join me for a walk along the beach?
Saturday, May 1, 2010
The day I've been looking forward to has finally arrived.
I've only slept for 2 hours and 30 minutes approximately. My eyes feel tired but I am pretty alert now, listening to Konayuki ^^ as the sun slowly creeps out.
When I was lying down just now trying to sleep, a lot of things ran through my mind.
Seems like there are a lot of things that I would like to do during this break. But, will I be able to do them all?
There are also changes that I would want to make, self reflections and self improvement. Will I be able to do so? It's always easier said than done. How much discipline will I have to give myself to push forward?
A lot of things can happen within a day, needless to say within 4 months.
Geesh I don't even know what I am crapping about.
Anyway, I can smell lovely breakfast in the air. Ham...which sadly isn't for me.
Oh well counting down, roughly 14 hours to flight. Am I even ready????
I've only slept for 2 hours and 30 minutes approximately. My eyes feel tired but I am pretty alert now, listening to Konayuki ^^ as the sun slowly creeps out.
When I was lying down just now trying to sleep, a lot of things ran through my mind.
Seems like there are a lot of things that I would like to do during this break. But, will I be able to do them all?
There are also changes that I would want to make, self reflections and self improvement. Will I be able to do so? It's always easier said than done. How much discipline will I have to give myself to push forward?
A lot of things can happen within a day, needless to say within 4 months.
Geesh I don't even know what I am crapping about.
Anyway, I can smell lovely breakfast in the air. Ham...which sadly isn't for me.
Oh well counting down, roughly 14 hours to flight. Am I even ready????
Friday, April 30, 2010
Memories
One more day
Another day before heading to the airport and going back to Malaysia. What I can say is that time flies so fast. It felt just like yesterday that I graduated from ICPU, that I just reached
Canada.
ICPU graduation
Now, it's time for juniors to go through the paths that I've been through the past 8 months. Oh man I can't accept this!!!! @@ Time please slow down.....
As I looked back, I wish I could relive the moments, those happy times, back in secondary school back in ICPU.
Secondary school years were those times where I enjoyed fooling around. In Form 1, I was introduced to a school very different from my primary school and enjoyed the 2-week-orientation. I remembered there was one temporary teacher who taught my class BM and left within a week because my class was too noisy.
In Form 2, I met a crazy friend who happened to be my sister's ex-classmate's sister. Yeah..those crazy times at the balcony. I even got punished for being noisy.
There was nothing much in Form 3 that I could think of. I was probably getting a little more serious and less of the running.
In the upper forms, I enjoyed fooling around during spot checks or in laboratories where it wasn't that strict compared to labs in universities now. Somehow I liked those times when I got locked out of Physics Lab for being late too. I missed printing out letters of absence and skipping classes. I enjoyed being a librarian where you get access to all the new books. School concerts which came once a year gave me lots of wonderful memories as well with all the crazy hairstylings and make-ups.
Concert 2007
Prefects' Dinner 2007
In ICPU,
I enjoyed walking every Sunday to church, felt the breeze blowing, the early sunshine and the endless trips to Summit after church. I still think of my room once in a while. I missed Genting trips even though it only lasted for 2 days. I missed going down to the first floor in Casa Subang to eat.
BTN
After Genting
Sunday buddies
In Emirates
Sandalwood
There are lots more to describe but the feeling would of course be different. The best thing in life is not heard, seen or touched but felt with the heart.
There are some things that I wished hadn't happened but when I look back now, I am glad they did for they are lifelong lessons for keepsake.
For everything, you'll be in my heart always
Another day before heading to the airport and going back to Malaysia. What I can say is that time flies so fast. It felt just like yesterday that I graduated from ICPU, that I just reached
Canada.
ICPU graduation
As I looked back, I wish I could relive the moments, those happy times, back in secondary school back in ICPU.
Secondary school years were those times where I enjoyed fooling around. In Form 1, I was introduced to a school very different from my primary school and enjoyed the 2-week-orientation. I remembered there was one temporary teacher who taught my class BM and left within a week because my class was too noisy.
In Form 2, I met a crazy friend who happened to be my sister's ex-classmate's sister. Yeah..those crazy times at the balcony. I even got punished for being noisy.
There was nothing much in Form 3 that I could think of. I was probably getting a little more serious and less of the running.
In the upper forms, I enjoyed fooling around during spot checks or in laboratories where it wasn't that strict compared to labs in universities now. Somehow I liked those times when I got locked out of Physics Lab for being late too. I missed printing out letters of absence and skipping classes. I enjoyed being a librarian where you get access to all the new books. School concerts which came once a year gave me lots of wonderful memories as well with all the crazy hairstylings and make-ups.
Concert 2007
Prefects' Camp 2006
Prefects' Dinner 2007
In ICPU,
I enjoyed walking every Sunday to church, felt the breeze blowing, the early sunshine and the endless trips to Summit after church. I still think of my room once in a while. I missed Genting trips even though it only lasted for 2 days. I missed going down to the first floor in Casa Subang to eat.
BTN
At Genting
After Genting
Sunday buddies
In Emirates
SandalwoodThere are some things that I wished hadn't happened but when I look back now, I am glad they did for they are lifelong lessons for keepsake.
For everything, you'll be in my heart always
Thursday, April 29, 2010
28 April 2010
Another trip to Square One and today Baskin Robbins had great sale??? 31 cents per scoop for from 5pm to 9pm.
So after walking around into Body Shop and Bath and Body Works smelling every scent in there, we walked to the small Baskin Robbins stall where we found a long line of people queuing up already and it's only 4.45pm!!
Like the rest, we tailed behind the long line and waited and waited despite the tired legs.
I got marked on the hand for it too.
After going one round around the shopping complex, we came back to Baskin Robbins again and ordered another two scoops. However the lady at the Baskin Robbins recognised us and told us that we were not allowed to have more than one round of BR...
Well, that's kind of weird. It's business and isn't it better to have more people buying?
Oh well, it's roughly 3 days away before I am flying back....woohoo...paradise here I come. Need a break from the life here.
Another trip to Square One and today Baskin Robbins had great sale??? 31 cents per scoop for from 5pm to 9pm.
So after walking around into Body Shop and Bath and Body Works smelling every scent in there, we walked to the small Baskin Robbins stall where we found a long line of people queuing up already and it's only 4.45pm!!
Like the rest, we tailed behind the long line and waited and waited despite the tired legs.
I got marked on the hand for it too.
After going one round around the shopping complex, we came back to Baskin Robbins again and ordered another two scoops. However the lady at the Baskin Robbins recognised us and told us that we were not allowed to have more than one round of BR...
Well, that's kind of weird. It's business and isn't it better to have more people buying?
Oh well, it's roughly 3 days away before I am flying back....woohoo...paradise here I come. Need a break from the life here.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
26 April 2010
It's 4.02 am and I am still wide awake. No feeling of sleepiness at all. Probably due to oversleeping during the day. Well it's time for me to get used to the time in Malaysia too.
I just finished a drama titled "One litre of tears" a few days ago. It's a really nic e, touching drama. Had lots of values that a lot of people don't realised in everyday life, for instance family, friendship, love and personal values.
Was touched by how their family was pulled together despite everything. When Aya found out she had her incurable disease, they did not give up on her but instead, they supported her and gave her encouragement all the time. Her parents showered their love, providing out of their financial capabilities to support her.
Realised that a lot of people around you can be your friends, but a few really care. A lot of people may laugh with you but only a few who will cry with you in times of sadness and difficulties. Like how Saki complained about Aya...as compared to Mari. The difference really portrayed the different kinds of friends you have in your life.
Was touched by Asou's love for Aya. Once again, Asou and Aya's senior were totally opposite. One abandoned her when he knew she was sick but Asou never left her. Despite her condition, Asou loved her nonetheles, knowing that she won't last long.
Was admiring Aya's determination to live on, despite her sickness. A smart student but ended up being vegetable. It makes you realise too how fragile life can be. Life is unexpected and that is why we should treasure every moment of it. Anything can happen and this is why a little setback shouldn't bring us down for there are worse things that can happen in life. Nobody says life is easy but it can be a happy one depending on the perspective you look at.
One litre of tears.
A touching drama that can really make you cry one litre of tears and is worth rewatching.
It's 4.02 am and I am still wide awake. No feeling of sleepiness at all. Probably due to oversleeping during the day. Well it's time for me to get used to the time in Malaysia too.
I just finished a drama titled "One litre of tears" a few days ago. It's a really nic e, touching drama. Had lots of values that a lot of people don't realised in everyday life, for instance family, friendship, love and personal values.
Was touched by how their family was pulled together despite everything. When Aya found out she had her incurable disease, they did not give up on her but instead, they supported her and gave her encouragement all the time. Her parents showered their love, providing out of their financial capabilities to support her.
Realised that a lot of people around you can be your friends, but a few really care. A lot of people may laugh with you but only a few who will cry with you in times of sadness and difficulties. Like how Saki complained about Aya...as compared to Mari. The difference really portrayed the different kinds of friends you have in your life.
Was touched by Asou's love for Aya. Once again, Asou and Aya's senior were totally opposite. One abandoned her when he knew she was sick but Asou never left her. Despite her condition, Asou loved her nonetheles, knowing that she won't last long.
Was admiring Aya's determination to live on, despite her sickness. A smart student but ended up being vegetable. It makes you realise too how fragile life can be. Life is unexpected and that is why we should treasure every moment of it. Anything can happen and this is why a little setback shouldn't bring us down for there are worse things that can happen in life. Nobody says life is easy but it can be a happy one depending on the perspective you look at.
One litre of tears.
A touching drama that can really make you cry one litre of tears and is worth rewatching.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
20 April 2010
Today I sat for my last test, Calculus which I sometimes think it sounded like Cactus and it indeed feels like I've been sitting on a cactus since the past few days too. But now, I am OFFICIALLY FREE. Even though I had not much feeling, probably post-exam syndrome (wait, does that even exist?), I feel somehow...good.
Say goodbye to First Year of Life Sciences, and hello soon to the second year, which marks the starting of specialization (Biotech). Geesh, still can't believe it. In two weeks' time I'll be outta here.
A recap of how everything changes since I got here. Adapting took me a really long time. It was really stressful at first but somehow everything turned better in the second semester.
I experienced autumn the first time I got here. Felt really cold even though it was like 16 degrees that time....to me now 16 degrees is hot now....change number 1.
From autumn
To Winter
and now spring!!!
Change number 2: Personal Growth
You began realising more of humans around you. And you came to realise their expectations and their perceptions about you. But when you have heard too much, the whole thing smacks you in your face like a boomerang. So, you begin changing yourself and slowwwwly as time goes by, everything changes and so do I. Positively, I think I am more matured now compared to if I were staying at home. Living with a bunch of people you just came to know required tolerance and well lots of patience because different people have different (should I say) style of living. I learnt to handle things not anymore by compelling not anymore by rejecting. I've grown more spiritually too, realising that no matter what happens, He is there by me all the time because He makes all things beautiful in His time. Therefore, don't judge anyone by their appearance just because they are not beautiful in your eyes, they are still creations of God.
And little bits of changes
Oh well last semester I did not do much but this semester I started looking for some voluteering to do. It satisfies you as much as a big buffet lunch!! Wanted to help the Canadian Cancer Society in selling daffodils but noone replied me. Anyway next time then.
Had more Starbucks this year. Especially during the study week when you have excessive basic dollars and endless trips to the library. And did I tell you how convenient it is to have Starbucks just beside the library. When you are memorising Biology or doing series for Calculus....starbucks help you clear your mind (P/S I did not receive any fees for advertising XD)
To Winter
and now spring!!!
Change number 2: Personal Growth
You began realising more of humans around you. And you came to realise their expectations and their perceptions about you. But when you have heard too much, the whole thing smacks you in your face like a boomerang. So, you begin changing yourself and slowwwwly as time goes by, everything changes and so do I. Positively, I think I am more matured now compared to if I were staying at home. Living with a bunch of people you just came to know required tolerance and well lots of patience because different people have different (should I say) style of living. I learnt to handle things not anymore by compelling not anymore by rejecting. I've grown more spiritually too, realising that no matter what happens, He is there by me all the time because He makes all things beautiful in His time. Therefore, don't judge anyone by their appearance just because they are not beautiful in your eyes, they are still creations of God.
And little bits of changes
Oh well last semester I did not do much but this semester I started looking for some voluteering to do. It satisfies you as much as a big buffet lunch!! Wanted to help the Canadian Cancer Society in selling daffodils but noone replied me. Anyway next time then.
Had more Starbucks this year. Especially during the study week when you have excessive basic dollars and endless trips to the library. And did I tell you how convenient it is to have Starbucks just beside the library. When you are memorising Biology or doing series for Calculus....starbucks help you clear your mind (P/S I did not receive any fees for advertising XD)
Oh well, this was probably my longest post, but I am pretty sure it's because of those pictures that I put up. I will be moving out of Mc Luhan Court soon, in a few days' time. Just like the feeling I had before moving out of Casa, I think this place will be a nostalgic one. Store your dorm just came with their boxes and will be packing real soon.
My room in casa....long time no see...
This is what I bought to BTN...and snacking almost every night....geee
And last but not least I am looking forward to sitting down at the table with my lovely family again....
And now Ida...did you think I have forgotten you? Haha then you are wrong!!! I miss you every second (ok maybe not every second...i guess you'll freak out if I do)....and Tse Yui arhhhh....why you come back sooo late ahhh? But still glad you are back when I am still in Miri. By then don't run away arrr...
Kaihan came today and since Mississauga has nothing much to see, we ended up playing Foozeball in the Student Centre.
But we still ended up having lots of fun =)
Enjoying every moment of exam-free life.....!!!!
Kaihan came today and since Mississauga has nothing much to see, we ended up playing Foozeball in the Student Centre.
But we still ended up having lots of fun =)
Enjoying every moment of exam-free life.....!!!!
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