S.A.D

It's winter again. The look of white snow everywhere is just depressing, especially when you were just back from a warm place like Orlando.

I cannot describe what I am feeling now. Depressed is not enough. I guess it's a case of S.A.D again

I really missed Disneyworld and Universal Studios.

What was it that I missed about Disneyworld you would ask? I'm not quite sure myself. Yes, I am in a state of confusion.

Maybe it's because I know that I will not be going there again. Maybe it's because of the pretty and amazing musicals, shows, parades and fireworks that I witnessed. Maybe, just maybe for certain reasons I cannot uncover now.

However, I did not feel Christmas there, despite the decorations, music and the large crowds of people, for Christmas was not meant to be that way. To be lost in a sea of people and yet still feel lonely, you know the reason why.

I went on a lot of scary rides in Universal Studios and Disneyland. I used to wonder why people love scary rides. Now I know. They love the adrenaline pumping in their bodies, the excitement and surprise the rides bring them.

School's going to reopen soon on 2 Jan. At least I can keep myself busy with something. Till then, I hope winter won't get me down

=(

希望

有时，最好不要拥抱希望，因为希望导致更大的失望.

因为我觉得害怕会失望, 所以我不想拥抱希望.

我现在只能祈祷, 祈求上帝帮实现我的要求.

S-U-M-M-E-R

Foooohh, a real long getaway!! 2 months i suppose...I'll roughly tell you what's up so far......

It's the first summer of my life. The weather here is not much different from what I experienced back in Malaysia. Hot, and HUMID.

My 2nd year in Mississauga flipped by and I am entering third year soon. I used to complain how slow time had been for me, but now, I would like to slow it down a little bit. Guess humans are always like that. I have just entered 2nd semester of summer school. If you are wondering what course I am taking, it's Chinese and Management.

And people will usually wonder why I would want to take Chinese. I'd like to read and write, though i doubt I'd be able to recognise characters on PPStream after this. Maybe 20%....or less. But, nevertheless, the class is fun.

My boxy chinese characters

I am volunteering for Bikeshare (an organization on campus that provides bike rentals to UTM students) and I also biked a little. I will do more these few days before it starts getting cold again. I also volunteered for Canadian Cancer Society in June for Relay for Life. It was tiring as I didn't sleep the whole night, but it was nice to see people fighting for their loved ones, who are suffering, had died or recovered from cancer.

The luminaries in memory of...

I also went to Missi's Carassauga Festival, all about diversity and the cultures of multinations. Too bad they didn't have Malaysia this year. The best would be Hawaii with their performances in coconut shells.

And also, it's the first BIGGER celebration for wei wei (my housemate) on her birthday too.

The oreo birthday cake

I also went to Centre Island in downtown Toronto for Dragon Boat festival, but ended up visiting the booths that were there and later in the evening, crammed into a karaoke room in Toronto.

In a dragon boat on display

In a mini theme park on Centre Island, Toronto

Malaysian Murtabak on Centre Island

Super Junior's Sorry Sorry Chinese Version

Panorama of Toronto from ferry

In short, summer courses are fun and relaxing, as compared to fall-winter school time when the timetable is packed full.

Summer time is also a time where I learnt a lot of things, where I find my long lost self, at least the person that I once knew still exists.

There are more to come. Canada's wonderland, for instance. I hope I can overcome my fear of height and speed and take Behemoth, Canada's biggest, fastest and tallest roller coaster. Even a ferris wheel ride used to freak me out (or probably still does). Well, I'll have my fingers crossed for now.

A lot of things complement each other. How one thing cannot function without the other.

Just like a table and a chair. One cannot go without the other. Size matters too. A tall chair won't fit a short table and the other way round.

Just like a lock and a key. Not all keys can open a lock. The little teeth matter.

What is a radio without speakers, a car without wheels, a bed without mattress.

Most importantly, who am I without you.

It was something simple, something really simple that made my day

Identified victim: Lilian Wong

Crime scene: SB 2074

Estimated time of death: 11am-12pm

Cause of death: Excessive bleeding

Main suspect: The one and only, Mr. Organic Chemistry

A picture tells a thousand words