He is always there for me,

always lending a shoulder to cry on.

When the world turns her back on me

he is always there to listen to my cries.

He hugs me with the warmest wrap ever

He stands still, letting me hit him with all my might

until I have all my insecurities defeated.

Every time I come home, he'll be ever waiting for me

To hear my frustrations and my heartaches

He accompanies to sleep every single night

And cuddles me to the deepest, sweetest dreams.

I love him very much!!

The time is now

The real battle has begun
English was tough but...you know
So now, the real battle has begun
the time is 1 pm the place is mph
Tata..

Two down one to go

Finally I finished my cpt presentation today! That means I don't have to be troubled by "The Color Purple" anymore. WOOHOO!! Chemistry's poster presentation will be tomorrow and it'll be the last assignment before the big event coming up next this Friday. Good Luck fellow ICPU mates!

Hectic!

This week onwards until 4 December will be a hectic one where the nature of sleep will be neglected the most and of course myelination too! Can't help it though. There's always not enough time for everything. Assignments shower like pouring rain tests creeping up like blood-sucking leeches. Uggh..life in icpu is like that. They train the icpu students to be clowns who can balance all the balls without tumbling. Well, in short that's how I feel icpu is all about..BALANCE!

11 Lessons in Life

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that
fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the
things you want to do.

Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you,
it probably hurts the person too.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you
were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Do you even care?

Birds are screaming,
Winds are howling,
But here I am standing,
Feeling lost and lonely,
I still remember so dearly,
How you hugged me so warmly,
This memory is too much to bear
Do you even care?

I don’t want this to end,
I don’t want to pretend,
The times we have to spend,
Are just brief and temporary,
Your love is just momentary,
Your love is just arbitrary.
Now that we have come to the end
Do you even care?

I love you more than I have ever known,
I love you more than the things I own.
When you praised me for my beauty, I swear I would have flown
But behind me you told her how her eyes sparkle,
This is too much for me to handle, this is mission impossible,
A day without you leaves me feeling terrible,
I bet you have probably forgotten me,
Do you even care?

It was finally clear to me,
That you never care for me,
All you did was making a fool of me,
The once upon a time Eden has vanished
Right before my very eyes, perished
I will stand strong, until I have you vanquished
I won’t cry anymore, I won’t shed more tears
For I now know
You never cared.


P/S This is the slam poem assignment. Not to be mistaken for any heartbreaks = No one was hurt doing the writing of the poem. Copyright protected. :)

This little love I've found,

which all this while had been an endless one,

is actually something momentary.


Fleeting memories randomly crawl,

But I trust,

It's just another spasm of the heart.

Poems poems

There's emptiness inside of me

Hollow, barren, hopeless,

My heart feels numb

As it bears the tortures and torments

in this pointless life,

Everyone is just the same

To even think of looking for someone different

Is the biggest oversight in this life.

As I am listening to HSM's "We're all in this together", it reminds me of form 4.
It was a nice year then. Lots of memories, too valuable to be forgotten.

Time passes so fast. It was just like yesterday I stepped out of secondary school. Life has to move on anyway and I am well aware of that but sometimes you just miss the old times so much that you feel like dwelling on that moment forever.

But still I need to come back to reality, to all the assignments and tests that are burdening me now. Arggh!! Sweet moments never last, they just pass with very few people cherishing them. And I am one of them.

I've been tagged

Bamboo_land tagged me so I'll answer.. wakakaka



1. Whats your ambition?
Err..never had one but I'm on the way to becoming a biotechnologist..probably planning to major in pharmaceutical

2. How often do you think of committing suicide?
Never!! Even though life may disappoint me lots of times but I care about those who love me

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Hmm most of the time I don't, frankly speaking. So I'm more of the quiet type.

4. How many babies you want?
Err..too early..SKIP!!

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Science tells me so if I look at a right angle but I'm always hoping I can see one :)

6. What is your goal for this year?
To go to Canada!! I wanna go Canada!!

7. Do you believe in eternity love??
Yes. I believe there's a perfect guy or girl for everyone else. Even though he or she might not bring you total happiness but hey, love is not happy all the time right? If it is then it won't be love.

8. What do you say about your life now?
Terribly tiring and....tiring..

9. What feeling do you love most?
Hmm.. I love to love and being loved by someone I love

10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
Hmm..no comments

11. Is there anything u want to tell the people u hate?
nah..

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yeah.. miss my friends!!

13. What does flying means to you?
Flying means going to canada and going back to miri

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
I crave for rest..

15. Where would your ultimate vacation spot be?
I'll like to be in Paris

16. Describe the person who tagged u in 7 words.
cute, friendly, outgoing, cheerful, sweet, charming, lovable!!

17. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
Play games, eat and shop

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
never thought of that..hehe

19. What is your lucky number?
22

20. What is your favourite food?
chocolates ice cream anything sweet!!

People i tagged: ~~
tseyui
ida
kershia
grace tay
julia

Running is definitely not my thing..

But for charity I'll run and I have run

Go Terry Fox!!

Love

Love is the greatest thing,

for if you have loved, you have lived

a life of perfection.

Though love itself is never perfect



Love one another as you love yourself,

Spread love, let everyone experience the majesty of love,

To love is better than to never love at all,

Love heals, love rules!

21 Things To Remember

No one can ruin your day without YOUR permission.


Most people will be about as happy, as they decide to be.


Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.


Whatever you are willing to put up with,is exactly what you will have.


Success stops when you do.


When your ship comes in.... make sure you are willing to unload it.


You will never "have it all together."


Life is a journey... not a destination. Enjoy the trip!


The biggest lie on the planet: "When I get what I want, I will be happy."


The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.


I've learned that ultimately, 'takers' lose and 'givers' win.


Life's precious moments don't have value, unless they are shared.


If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.


We often fear the thing we want the most.


He or she who laughs.... lasts.


Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.


Look for opportunities... not guarantees.


Life is what's coming.... not what was.


Success is getting up one more time.


Now is the most interesting time of all.


When things go wrong.... don't go with the flow.

Finally Over!

This long week has finally come to an end.
Yup a very busy week indeed! Macbeth drama presentation, bio quiz, chemistry test and finally macbeth test.. PHEW!

The day (weekends and Deepavali holidays) that I'm waiting for is finally here!!

Rejoice!

But...more assignments coming up.
There's this cpt thing for english, and a culminating task for chemistry. Then there's soundtrack assignment due next thursday and bio quiz the week after next. Not to mention advanced functions test next friday and the advanced functions culminating task too.. The list will never end.
Glad though it's almost December. Now that I mention it the finals are coming up! Arghhh...

Ooh.. I'm taking part in the Terry Fox run which is going to be at the Lake Gardens this 2 November. A lot of Taylorians are going though and hope it'll be fun. Gonna run 2.5km for charity (raising funds for cancer research). Terry Fox was a Canadian who was diagnosed with bone cancer at an early age. After one of his legs got amputated, he had it replaced with a prosthesis. To raise funds for cancer research, he did the 'marathon of hope', running from one city to another in canada to raise as much as he could before he collapsed halfway through the run. His cancer returned, which was found to have spread to his lungs. He died a year later..
To commemorate Terry Fox, the marathon is held in Canada every year. For a video on terry fox, this is a website from youtube that my lecturer showed the other day. A touching one indeed! *sobs*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjgTlCTluPA

Drama drama drama

Drama really is a pain in my neck. I'm acting on act 2 scene 4, the part where there's the old man, ross and macduff. Guess which part I'm acting as? Nope not the old man.. luckily not or else I have to croak my voice way low and probably gotta bend myself low..hehe.. Not macduff either.. I'm ross..haha.. well i still have to act like a guy though. No biggie I guess.. only the costumes are causing big problems. Like where on earth in such a short time can i find something that looks like the olden times people..

Next would be my soundtrack assignment. Hmm.. still in the process of looking for songs. Any suggestions anyone? I'm doing act 2. Hehe..

It's the middle of October and i'm rejoicing for it! First semester is almost over. Phewww.. time flies so fast. A lot of things change within this period..Some of which are irreversible, and it stays on for as long as I live.

Thanks anyway after all this time

Another long day

Today is just another long day.

Had my biology test on photosynthesis. Really confusing one. All those questions and answers make my head spinning.

In Chemistry, we did an experiment (more like an activity) on cleaning silver. Pretty clean though but it was a boring one. I kept staring and waiting for the water to boil. And after that staring and waiting for the silver to de-tarnish. Hehe..

In the afternoon there was this EAP (english for academic purposes test). Ooo..don't ask.. I don't even know what crap I'm writing about..hehe

Finished at 6pm and I couldn't get on the last bus (last bus of the evening unless you wanna wait till 9). Luckily I was with Julia and Grace and another guy (Sorry i dunno your name!!) hehe.. so we took rapid kl.. not a good idea on a rainy AND windy day.. I was wet and trembling after the bus dropped us off at mydin an hour after we boarded the bus. And yeah..it was peak time so we had to stand AND SQUEEZE while we were in the bus so now I had a backache..yikes..

So now I'm gonna end this terrible day by blogging.. hope tommorrow will be a shiny day..

Cool shoes huh? I want a pair of those!! There are new products of the Adbusters foundation I came to know today while I was doing the Canadian project with Suhaila.
There are more but I like the red one the best!! Red rocks!!

What's in a name..

Although the name Lilian creates the urge to be creative and original, we point out that is causes frustration through a scattered and emotional nature.


This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the liver, bloodstream, and in tension or accidents to the head.


Your first name of Lilian has made you a friendly, approachable, and generous person.


Generally you are good-natured, though at times you can be blunt and sarcastic.


As you are naturally talkative, you find it easy to meet and make friends with many people.


This name inclines you to be sympathetic and generous to those in difficult or unfortunate circumstances.


You can be firm, positive, and independent in your own ideas and in reaching your own decisions, yet when it comes to taking action or following things through to completion, you often need encouragement.


You respond quickly to kind words or any appreciation shown you.


There are artistic, creative abilities in this name that you could express through music or singing, or, in a practical way, through sewing or interior decorating




In a way somehow some are quite true but some are not. I'm not at all talkative. I have to disagree with that. I am not sarcastic too, maybe accidental sarcasm but usually I don't mean them. Erm..well it's just for fun right?? Not all Lilians are the same anyway.

Fair is foul and foul is fair

Fair is foul and foul is fair

Life is unpredictable. Life is full of hypocrites. Life, a big mystery. My Biology lecturer once asked us what we think life is.. I was about to say that life is just a show. Where people don't mean what they say. What seems nice to us will actually hurt us the most. Yeah life is really unpredictable..just like the weather. When you expect it to rain, it'll probably shine and you just troubled yourself by holding an umbrella. The rose on the ground looks pretty but who knows that its thorns could be prickly. Life is just the same. People hide, feelings shown are merely the opposite. As I look around me today, I see that this world is actually not such a wonderful place to live in anyway. People live to die.. I guess that's the purpose of life. We're just waiting for our deaths.. i'm not trying to be philosophical but it's true.. Some people do not treasure what they have now..I can tell you that 8/10 people in this world are like that. They cry they regret when their loved ones die. What's the use anyway?? Just appreciate life as you have it now..appreciate those who care for you. For guys who have partners now, eventhough she might not be your lifetime partner, treasure her for what she is. Don't break her heart..don't you ever try to. You never know what you're missing in your life until it really happens. Children treasure your parents for their love is the greatest. Live life to the fullest while it lasts..

Today has been a long day with all the tests and quizzes lifted off your shoulders you feel so free.

Well not for long. Biology test is coming up, assignments due dates are coming closer. Drama drama drama...MACBETH!! Not a bad play after all.. only that i kept falling asleep in English class especially during movie time. Hey, can't help it ok? It's dark and cold I'm sure I'm not the only one who fell asleep!

Now i gotta rush my chemistry formal report..due on Monday.. only that I dunno how to get started.. Hehe..

I MISS YOU!!

I MISS MY ROOM!! I accidentally locked my keys inside my room.. so i had to sleep..with wei wei again (just when i want to spend a night in my room). So now I just want to say I MISS YOU!!

A little gathering

Those staying back in Casa (except for Grace), we had a little gathering on 29 September at Liong's unit.. in conjunction with my birthday (a belated one)



The one with the 'peace' is wei wei and the one lighting the candles is liong..





Me and wei wei



From the upper left (Grace, Mathew, Liong) then wei wei and me..hehe



If you noticed, Liong's eyes were closed so we took another one..



And then another one because I looked at the cake



At last..picture perfect..Wahaha

They called the canadian pizza..not bad anyway..yum yum..There's supposed to be an ice cream for dessert but everyone was too full to have them anyway..

It's really nice to have friends who cared
Well, I bet everyone knows that feeling
Especially when you're feeling down..
A pat on the shoulder from a dear friend will immediately cheer you up for the rest of the day..



Thanks to all of you who cared for me out there

glitter-graphics.com

Yum Yum..

Last Friday I had dinner at the Marriot in Putrajaya together with the other JPA scholars from Sarawak. Marvellous night indeed after we waited at Taylor's gate for more than an hour. Julia had been anticipating so she was smiling broadly. Aww..


On the way to Marriot I caught some snappy phots of the trafic jam here..




After one hour of journey we finally reached..



Quite late though and our stomachs were grumbling already...grrr.. we arrived around 8. Luckily the scenery was quite an idyllic one or else..



And again Julia..staring at Mathew..



People sitting with me at the same table.. they're from sibu..


Well eventually I got BORED so I took a pic of the menu..



Pretty lights..





Eventually Maggie got impatient waiting for the food to come she stuck a rose on her cuppa tea


Eating time.. yum yum shark's fin soup






Then suddenly speech..yawn yawn..honestly I dunno who this guy is..


Maggie and I went out for a visit before our next dish arrive..can you guess where this is?

well...it's the toilet! Yeah I know it's crappy but boredom just pushed us to do so..




These mooncakes are very dear and DEAR..but pretty..








Ooh this was the last dish..




Then it's photo session..From left that's meng how, boon tung, mathew, me, agnes and maggie


Same thing except that mathew moved


Part of the big big building..





This was a photo taken with Kelvin Yong..


Once again there's nothing different about the picture except that someone moved..




Farewell fellow friends..till we meet again!!