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Upload your fave picture and answer the questions below.

Why do you chose this photo?

Hmm..well this is one of my favourites actually. First of all I love how we are all arranged that the colours of our baju kurungs blended in so well. Haha.. then..err.. this was my first time following the ICPU dress-up week and in fact I only dressed up for a day..so..I guess you got my meaning..XD

When is the last time u ate Pizza?

The last time..oh it was back in Miri with my family at Pizza Hut - the one and only. But it was real fun you know. After the tiring days and months spent in Subang Jaya, I finally get to have a week holiday well-spent with my family..Home sweet home..wait..I'm out of topic..

The last song you've listened to?

Utada Hikaru's First Love

What are you doing besides answering this tag?

Hmm..let's see..there's a Physics book beside me..I was supposed to read it but..Anyway..I'm doing nothing..putting full attention in answering this tag :)

Besides your own name, how do you like ppl to call u?

Hmm..I don't mind anything...Just don't call me something that sounds terrible and geli..haha XD

Tag 6 people. The following questions are related to them.

1. Audrey Wong

2. Ng Tse Yui

3. Julia Chin

4. Grace Tay

5. Nian Yi

6. Ida Sim

Who is No. 1?

Wahaha..she's someone who has stayed in the same house for 19 years even though she's in Kuching now. Someone who's taking the same course as I'm. My sister Ajay.

No. 3 has a relationship with?

Oo..that's a tough one. Hmm... :)

Say something about No. 5

A sweet girl..not to mention damn SMART! She seems to know every answer to every question. I'm in the same LAN and english class with her this year and was in Advanced Functions class with her last semester.

How about No. 4?

People seem to have mistaken her as my twin. But we're NOT! She's a lot prettier la.. My neighbour in my unit (as in the next room). My dinner mate and a good friend! As quiet as I am, but I'm glad to have found someone as quiet as I am. :)

Who is No. 2?

She's in Miri currently doing A-levels and will be going to England! Was in the same class as her since form 1 until form 5 except for form 2. Been a long time since I last saw her. Oh and her birthday is coming soon..(and I still remember :))

Say something to No. 6!

Good luck with Form 6 ya! And score the best for yourself!! All the best!

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Loneliness and conformity

Loneliness is sometimes torturing to the mind and to the heart

However, remember that you are never alone. Even though the whole world might turn its back up on you, friends might walk away in your life, leaving you at the most significant time of your life, keep in mind that you are never alone. Because God is always with you.

It has become a fear, rooted in everyone else. Even the social butterflies do feel so sometimes. It's not how people's view about you that matters, so stop going around impressing people. Life is short and what is the purpose of doing so right?

If people doesn't accept you for who you are then that person is not worth it for you to change.

Conformity

A single and yet big word. People conform to the expectations of the society, trying to fit in. Everybody does that because nobody wants to feel lonely.

I once knew someone, let's call him/her A. A changed from someone who was really gentle to someone totally different and the reason is? YES expectations of parents and the society. There's no such rule as living up to people's expectations without you being happy. What is life when you're not happy? I'm sure God doesn't want people to do that!

Anyway, the key idea is just to be yourself and stay the same as who you really are. I really hope A would be someone I once knew before. It would really hurt you when someone change from the way they once were

Everything happens for a reason

I was on my way to Taylor's College one very early morning when this guy sitting next to me said something, "I believe everything happened for a reason."

Immediately his words struck me. Once again, I find myself drifting in thoughts.

Yes.

Everything happens for a reason. And the reason is God Loves Us. That is why He has arranged everything - bad or good - in our lives with perfect order and intentions. We find ourselves blaming Him when things turn out wrong but HEY RELAX! He has everything under control! He knows what's best for us.

Even our deepest darkest moments can be somewhat a blessing in disguise. Only after a certain time then may we realise that it's not that bad after all.

So, no matter what happens..Just sit back and relax and don't fret over it! That's because He loves all of us.

I

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tired.

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sleeping

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class

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whole

unit!

Good Friday

It was Good Friday yesterday and it rained after we reached the church. Praise the Lord!

Anyway, yesterday was the first after a long time, the time I participated in the Stations of the Cross. I'm actually proud of myself for attending it together with some other church-goers. :)
I bought a candle in conjunction with Easter Vigil and a charity to St Thomas More builiding fund (the new church). The candle came along with a prayer card.

I totally loved yesterday's sermon. It's about what truth really is. I realised that people run away from truth always. And with that, I'm no exception. I tend to be someone that I'm not. And living up to expectations, so caught up that we lose ourselves entirely in the process and we're not being truthful to ourselves, brothers and sisters, parents, boyfriends and girlfriends, husbands and wives and the list goes on...





Well, in short, why compare? The grass is always greener on the other side? Not exactly. Look carefully and you'll probably realise that you've missed some patches of weeds as well.



Apparently, Jesus died for all of us, and to redeem our sins. Thus, this explains all the sufferings that we have to bear in the world. Everyone has equal sufferings and damages in their lives as well - in short, nobody's perfect.

Truth.

Even a white lie equally strays from the meaning of truth. White lies do hurt and all the reasons for the white lies won't help. A lie is a lie. The pastor's right...





Good Friday allows me to once again renew my faith in Jesus and to constantly turn to him when the distractions in this world lure me away. I was touched by His love. His willingness to suffer and die for all of us to bear our sins, which provides a pathway to heaven for us.



When I was venerating the cross, Father Vincent's words came back to a flash into my head. So, with that, I left all my sins and dissatisfactions in my life and towards some people on the cross which He carries and made a promise.

grrrr

I lost 50 bucks...due to blurness and carelessness..

Someone please tell me it's not a biggie?

Like I said things go wrong at the wrong time in life and overwhelms me, swallowing me up in despair.

It's Good Friday today and there's no holiday like how Sarawak used to and still have.

Mass is going to start in a few hours' time so Tata..

Do you really know how I feel when you judge me differently without knowing how I truly felt ?

Instead of fighting for the truth, you only perpetuate my sufferings.

Look and not see, deeply in my eyes

I'm crying out most of the time

Ever hoping that you might lend an outstretched hand and say, "No fear".

All I did was give and take, is that even wrong?

I remember how Mama used to say that over and over again

Did I do anything wrong to deserve this unfair treatment?

Oh God, guide this lost sheep of yours to somewhere right

Strengthen her faith and give her courage to fight for herself

The pain of being backstabbed

Yeah..come to think of it

I feel like I was being backstabbed

I didn't know whether it is done on purpose or what but I guess it was

Why?

We had been friends for so long already...

My feelings were always ignored for the pleasure of others

Mocked in front of everyone else

I feel just like a fool

Believing what you always said

Now it turns out to be

you

the one who broke my heart

Really a winner? Be careful...

I am writing this to share what I have dealt with frauds (my guess)

It was 8pm on 31 March. I was sitting on my bed reading Phyiscs when suddenly this guy called me, telling me I won a Sony PSP from Cornetto Love Sparks, which I recalled indeed I have joined that contest last year. And so he smsed me the address of the company which is in Kelana Jaya and asked me to collect the prize by this week. Okay I thought, that was quite weird.. why by this week?

In the sms, I was asked to bring a photocopy of my IC. Hmm...and so I thought again, what about the proof of purchase (the lid which I had thrown away last year after clearing my desk).. Hmm...

After days of contemplating, I went to google for this contest (contest period was from 15 July 2008 till 15 September 2008). A really long time ago! And after a few more searches, things began to become more suspicious. The real address of the Cornetto company doesn't compliment the one he gave me..Hmm...

And lots more stuff that heightens the suspicion.

So in the end, I have decided it should be a fraud. I can never be that lucky. Only 16 PSPs to be given out and it's one in a million that I'll be that 1/16 of Malaysian who is damn lucky.

People out there, be careful..don't let your mind be blinded by material (even though I do admit it is kinda tempting) but don't give way into temptation. I'd rather lose the few bucks than myself..agree?

Lately Casa has become more and more unhabitable...if there's even a word like that.. So just be careful...

Time passes really fast..in a few months' time, we will be going on our ways, making our respective future a realized dream.

The pain of separation has to come and will fall on most of us; undeniable and unavoidable.

Happy times must pass once and for all...and I dare not think of it now..

From this, I learnt that it's really crucial to treasure every moment of your life. Things change constantly and before you know it, it'll be gone or have evolved into what you don't expect it to.

I write this as I miss the times we spend together and hopefully we will keep in touch despite being dispersed into the different states in Canada.