awful

Freaking lost in Subang Jaya, my housemate, Grace and I used the long way from Taylor's College to SS17/2.

With much to our amazement and shock, we could have used the path leading directly from Asia Cafe to SS17 which would have saved much of our time and energy. Well, to be positive, we'd seen, along the path, a lot of nice foodstuff and stalls although we didn't had the time to stop for them. I had to get them over and done with.

So the walk we continued on until we saw a quite friendly woman to ask for some directions as we were quite bewildered by the heavy flow of traffic and at the same time puzzled at where the police station could be.

The woman told us to walk straight until the Petronas oil station came to view and the police station is just beside it. Thanking profusely to the woman, we went on, passed houses in SS17 and finally not long after that, we saw the green station. To the left of the station we saw red vehicles and I was blinking my eyes a few times and the unmistakable fire station was what we saw. Confused, we went to ask a guy who was standing at the petrol pump for directions. And so he pointed out that the police station was just beside the fire station, which is also beside a steakhouse. Yum...

I have not much to say about the service, but at first the internet and system was down. So, it took a longer time to finish a stinking report. Hrmph.. The police asked me to return and come some other time when the system is fine. I was like 'WHAT??? I walked all the way here to look for you so that I can go back to my lovely hometown and this is what you ask me to do???!!'

So I told her I'm going to have my dinner first and will return after I fill my tummy. It was fast after dinner and everything was done in a while. So there I go with a report and waiting for weekdays to come to make a new identity card.

Hey Mr or Miss who-so-ever-you-are please return the purse to me!!! I just need the ic ok??

Be gone

Phase two of my life has just begun

Be gone phase one! Never haunt me again!

The very fateful day

23 February.

Definitely a day in history.

The day that determines everything in my life

And the day that destined me for what I have

The day that makes me realise

I'm not that different after all.

But it is this day that makes me shudder

At the thought of past memories

I know I will never have the courage again

The courage that had caused all the pains

I will once and for all, suppress myself

For the better and for the best

Time will not allow the next to happen

I am sure.

Because of you

Physics

You really get on my nerves

Slept at 2 am because of Physics

Ate waffle for lunch because of Physics

Slept in class because of Physics

Dark rings around the eyes because of Physics

Physics...

It's all because of you...

It finally disengaged from its string. After quite some time hanging it on my bag, it finally fell off.
I didn't understand why I still kept looking for it. I even backtracked it, knowing that it belongs to one of the past memories. Probably that's why - I just can't forget and just can't move on. Still stuck and held back by the recollections that had once gathered and humoured me.

It wasn't anything special. It was just a key chain with a cross on it. The only thing that made it valuable was the reminiscence of those happy times. However, I am well aware that nothing will change even if I found it this afternoon when I snaked through and fixed my eyes on the hallway like a beggar looking for signs of wealth. No nothing's gonna change. Everything stays the way they used to be.

I should really stop this, I keep telling myself. I keep myself busy all the time so that nothing can actually get to me. But once it does, I feel pangs of fear and heartfelt pains that torment me so in the hours of loneliness.

I must get back to my Physics report now...

It's a wet, wet world

Wet. The keyword of the day.

0608 is flooded. The water even seeps through the door and into MY ROOM!! and the others too. The masterbed room is the worst and i should be counting my blessings already.

Well, mops and rags all come in handy at this time of the 'occasion' and so it wipes and sucks all the water. Only that it's still as wet as ever.

Not to mention the toilet rag (the cause of all the flooding, not the rag!), it's soaking wet and make squishy sounds when you step on it. EEUUU!!

Floating, drifting and drowning in 0608...

Pride and prejudice

Love the movie, hate the book

*yawns*

Reading pride and prejudice can be a real torture to my brain

I just couldn't digest what is trying to say sometimes and I find myself reading a few times before I can truly understand. Gosh.

Busy busy busy

Busy busy busy...busy indeed with the university applications

People running around with documents..

Now I'm stuck between Alberta and UBC...

Hmm...Alberta is a really pretty uni you know..kinda regretting it

Saskatchewan and Dalhousie are pretty unis too..so nice classic buildings *saliva dripping*

Oh man..and then that's when the 'what ifs' pop in...

....

Today is not 13 Friday but why are all the bad things befalling on me today instead of yesterday? I'm so depressed now.. so down.

I can't bare to see anymore, so weak to face life. I never know it would give such a great impact on me.My heart feels broken and disappointed with life.

My head is spinning with thoughts and questions like how and why.. sigh..

Sorry I can't go tomorrow. I feel really tired I need a break from life.

Love songs are being played everywhere but they are all sad sonatas.

This is the worst Valentine's ever.

Happy Valentine's Day

Endless confessions from the heart, bunches and bunches of roses, heart-shaped chocolates and a romantic night. Couples sure are dreaming and anticipating for this special day to spend with their sweethearts. Blah..what crap am i even talking about.

Well, in conjunction with Valentine's Day, I find this song nice and the title is suitable too. It's 'My Valentine' by Martina Mcbride

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

La da da Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!

Got cha

Okay.. the LAN quiz is not as easy as Mr Tong has said and rated it as 'the easiest test in the world'. No doubt the last question was the easiest. Imagine a quiz on 'What subject is this?"

:(

I'm longing for Fridays as usual.



Today is not such a good day for me. Woke up today with a weird feeling in my stomach. No, wait it feels like gastric. Ok no problem, it's not something new to me. Then, I went for breakfast with anna and somehow the bee hoon didn't help.



So, I went to buy some gastric medicine at 7-Eleven as it got worse. Swallowed two pills and felt even worse in Calculus class. Just as nothing can get better, it's Calculus quiz day for Ms Joanne's students. Gosh..I can't even think properly.



Yeah, moved on to the next class, which was English and putting my bag, I hurried to the toilet and started vommitting. Hmm.. it's been a long time since. And then at the middle of the group discussion. However it didn't help a bit. In fact the pain grew worse. By the time English class ended i was swinging to and fro already due to the growing pain.



So, I've decided to go and see a doctor, which I did after my sleep at Burger King.



And....



This is what the doctor told me..



You've got "stomach flu"..Oh my and it has something to do with something something intestine infection. Hmm...ok..guess it's not such a biggie after all and so she prescribed me two types of medicine and I paid RM XX for it. Hey this amount is enough to sustain my meals for few days. (Hrmm)











Well and after eating the pills, I started swinging around again. This time due to sleepiness, and so I slept till now with piles of homework undone and a LAN quiz to face tomorrow. And it still hurts you know.. :(



What an enjoyable college life! Haha..tata for now.

The painful reality

Do you know the hurtful feeling of being backstabbed?

People are so SELFISH that they put the blame on you for everything you've done to get themselves spotless and clean. See how the selfish the world can be??!!

Why should I be the one to help anyway when I ended up being the one all bruised and hurt? Now you're out of trouble you're so free that you can hum a lovely song while me? I'm all burnt up and drown. Did you not hear the breaking sound of my fragile heart?

Now that I realise people can be so selfish at times when it comes to rescuing themselves. They'd rather push you down and save themselves.

Are you happy now?? I find myself turning to my blog for solace.. Isn't anyone out there who is really trully willingly to listen to the little sounds in my heart?

Sigh. It's just a devastating life

Rolling eyes again in Physics class. Can't help it already. I've been rolling my eyes since Calculus and fell asleep in English while we're supposed to finish reading the Jane Austen article.

Finally the nightmare is over but it won't be long before another comes. Ouch I can feel the other side of my head throbbing in pain now.

There's another short critique coming up and then there's LAN quiz.. Grrrrr

So tired..

Stay the same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing 'bout you I would change
I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show the way
Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing about you I would change
Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find
Will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you'll always stay the same
Cuz there's nothing 'bout you I would change
No, there's nothing 'bout you I would change


P/S I hope you'll always be the same old you
Don't be someone that the society likes be who you are and you'll be the happiest

*yawns*

essays deprive me of sleep

nightmares

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HURRAY!! No LAN!!!

I find myself constantly turning to blogging for solace,

Whenever the pain comes up and the need to spill out my feelings

Like spurge out of my bleeding heart.

There was noone I could talk to and I held everything back

for the fear of being cheated continuously haunt me.

It was a familiar face that made me feel so

But how can I say?

Recently I need a little entertainment

I need a shoulder to lean on, for me to cry on when the urge comes out

There's no use for me to keep waiting

It's just another mystery pondering on my life

Oh tummy

I come back with a rounded tummy. Oh so full I don't think I can sleep tonight. So stuffed with fish balls, veges, crabmeat and etc and not to forget...ice cream! Wakaka..

Anyway we had a fun time and the moon is pretty round (as round as my stomach!!) tonight. :)

*No pictures for display*

Happy Chap Goh Mei everybody and to all the couples out there Happy Valentine's Day!!

Life is playing with me again

It makes me really tired.

When will this stop?

Fate, weather and destiny

Are all unpredictable

Just like rafting in a wide open sea

A sense of hopelessness

Almost over

Chinese New Year is almost over in just a wink of an eye. Whew..

To think that 2 weeks is long..

Chinese New Year in Miri this year is not as grand compared to previous years but there are still fireworks







The best thing about Chinese New Year is still the reunion dinner. My parents cook every year since it's just a small family gathering among five of us. I see and eat these food every reunion dinner since it's a must-have in the Chinese tradition

The most important is of course fish!! Nian nian you yu



Then there's chicken



Siew mai!!



And tiger prawns!!



The mixed veges



This is a Hakka specialty...pak lok ak


And gu kin soup



Uncooked veges..looked nice



My dad's best friend



And my dad's favourite



That's about it for reunion dinner. Lovely dishes!! Yum Yum!!

The purpose of literary criticism

The purpose of literary criticism?

Is DEFINITELY NOT to make people realise the truth around us but to make the lives of ENG4U students miserable.

Hey come on, if it could snap people out of what they are doing now, it could have succeeded hundreds of years ago way way back when there were poets and critcs slamming around.

Now tell me what's the purpose of literary criticism again?

I really have not an idea of what to write about "betting on the muse" by Charles Bukowski. Poems are meant to be a mystery and there's no use analysing it since mystery is its sole purpose? There is never a right or wrong answer for a poem anyway. It all depends on how the individual look at it. Aduh...

Horoscopes

Feeling too bored, I browsed the internet for fun quizzes and read horoscopes. It's not that I believe in them but it's just for fun. :)

I was not the only one looking at horoscopes coz my two other housemates are laughing and comparing whose horoscopes are the laziest, the loyal friend, bla bla and so on.

And so my horoscope for this week


Hold your cards close to your chest over the next few days, even if someone close to you asks to take a peek. Run, don't walk, to get advice on a burning question from someone's who's been there before.

Burning question? Someone who has been there before? Hmm...

A burning question? Someone who's been there before? Hmm...

Stuck in a library session..

Haha so i turn to blogging since it's really boring here. From the very back I can see people browsing the internet, and I wonder how many people are actually listening
*hehes*

Boredom...

For goodness sake

"Communication is getting a lot easier nowadays". That was what my LAN teacher mentioned this morning as I looked around at almost everyone with their hands down, doing I dunno what. And so I think to myself, is communication really improving with the advancement of technology?

I used to think so before I received an sms yesterday. An sms that made me wanna shout out loud, that made me boil with fury.

And this is what I think..

With communication, gossips travel much faster and when people alter the truth, gossips can slam on your face, leaving you feel disappointed at what people say about you.

People never know how hurtful it is when you change the truth of something and spread the wrong thing around. And that someone was being accused of something that has never happened just because of the twist in the story.

For goodness sake, just stop it..

Awkward!!

I saw him on my way down the stairs today

And so I flashed a smile..

What happened yesterday was probably in our minds

Then he smiled back, a flashing smile, as flashing as his shirt

And oh the awkwardness

Lethargy

That is one lethargic bus schedule.

Have pity on my sleep!!